Hate every beautiful day

Everything's all clear
I wish it was raining
'Cause I hate every beautiful day
—"Hate Every Beautiful Day" by SUGARCULT

Well, today I didn't go to my internship in order to get my artist presentation paper done for photography class. So, I was really stressed, feeling bad psychologically.

Then, I start to feel bad physically, nauseous and such, and I lay down for a bit. My computer hangs up while I'm trying to write my paper, then I have to take my little sister her track shoes. But the time I get back, I have no time to finish my paper, and I'm wondering if I'm going to be able to sit through class. I finally take some medication (hard in itself, because I can't swallow pills), and I slowly start to feel better. Eventually I realize that it's not my day to present, which is a relief. However, I still need to go to the photo lab tonight to work, and I really don't feel like it, because now I'm stressed emotionally.

Yeah, this is not one of my better days.

If it were raining, then something would at least be going my way, matching my mood. But it's actually quite lovely outside. A great day to shoot photos and appreciate creation. Goodness, I'm an optimist even when I'm depressed, if that's even possible.

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On a positive note, my slides came out awesome. I was excited about it yesterday, but lately I've been overwhelmed and overwhelming myself. I worry about too many things that I can't control, and I just have to learn not to take things so personal.