Sleep to dream

I tend to have really vivid dreams when I sleep. Sometimes I remember them, sometimes I don't. When I can't remember all the details, it's because I was in a very deep sleep when I was awakened. All I remember is that I had a dream that I wished I could remember. I'm left with this feeling. Then, when I eventually remember something from the previously unmemorable dream, it usually comes in the form of a very unsettling feeling of deja-vu.

So, I took a long nap today, and when I woke up I immediately remembered the dream. It was quite disturbing to me. It involved some romance, some death, and then some resurrection. I guess the resurrection was the disturbing part, because the person was brought back by kid who used a video game to do it (It's a dream remember). I vividly remember the feeling of my heart dropping when I found out that the person what dead, and the shock of finding out they had been brought back to life. I knew they weren't supposed to be alive that way. It had been too long (like 30 minutes), and something in me told me that they should have just been left dead. But I didn't want them to be dead, because we had just shared a momentously special moments only minutes before.

It was weird. I was totally going with the irrational events of the dream because the emotions I was feeling were the only thing happening that were appropriate. So, I felt I should try to articulate all this in an entry.

It is a comfort to know that my dreams do not foreshadow anything bad that's going to happen. I know that it's just my brain reorganizing information from that day, so I have a pretty good idea of where the general plot of the dream came from. It had to do with my present concerns, which involve someone leaving, and I guess I' worried about the possibility that I may never see them again, or at least for a very long time.

I don't know if I'm happy or not that I did remember this particular dream. I'm going to be thinking about it for a while; I know that.

Ah well. C'est la vie.